Gathering thoughts is something that I am normally not very good at. As usual, my thoughts and feelings are chaotic on the loose inside my brain, and getting a hold of them is almost impossible.
Being thankful isn’t even a fraction of how I feel. I feel so loved, supported, encouraged, comforted, grateful. I mean, the list goes on. I don’t think any word in the dictionary can be enough to describe the feelings I have had the last couple of days. From being devastated about the insurance company not covering the fees, being shocked by the bill from the veterinary(so far over 8.000 NOK, $1000 USD) and then the amazing, indescribable feeling when some of my friends made a surprise fund page for us.
I have cried my eyes out too many times over a short period of times. After we were worried about cancer, after getting the diagnosis, after the first treatment and when receiving tons of support from around the world.
The response has been mind-blowing. Absolutely so incredible. I could never in my wildest imagination know that the response would be this huge. Its literally insane how many people who are and have supported me and Baldur through this process. I am lost for words.
It’s incredible how well over 400 people have contributed already, and it’s barely been 48 hours since it was published. The page has incredibly reached over 19.000 NOK($2.400 US!)! And this fund page is only available for Norwegians, and still there are so many. It’s almost overwhelming. The feeling of having so many people supporting Baldur’s battle with cancer is amazing.
I don’t really know where I am going with this blog post, but I just want to let everyone know that I am so incredibly thankful for every single one supporting us though this battle. It gives me so much hope and perseverance. We will get through this, I am sure of it. Baldur is such a strong-willed horse, and just the fact that he is the one comforting me says a lot.
Baldur’s next round of chemo treatments will be in one week, on November 1st. Then we will also find out if the treatment is working as good as we are hoping. If it doesn’t work, we have to try something else, and the last option is to amputate. It may sound terrible, but it isn’t as bad as it may sound. Veterinaries and general science is on our side, and I am determined to beat the crap out of this cancer.
Again, I want to give huge thanks to everyone who is supporting us. From sending me messages, giving me hugs and just showing that you are here for me when I need it the most. I am forever grateful to have such an amazing community of people around me.